It’s been an exciting time. Ideas and plans that have been bubbling away in my head are finally coming to fruition in various ways. ThinkTwice has a proper logo, its’ own Facebook page, an email address and a twitter feed. Meetings are lined up and my graphic designer friend, Steve, is producing posters and new ideas by the minute!
It made me think about the different passions people have. Throughout my two years at LST, I have heard about the passions of many different people; from social justice to overhauling the church; from rehabilitating prostitutes to hospital chaplaincy.
I have no doubt that the people I know will pursue their God-given passions and go onto make a difference in the world we live in. I was drawn to Psalm 37:4 and wondered how often it is mis-read and mis-quoted. It reads; ‘Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart’. I for one, used to believe that He would give me anything I wanted – it didn’t take long for me to realise that this isn’t what the verse means. For if we are delighting in the Lord, and following Him, our delights will flow from the relationship we have with God – and our delights will be in line with God’s will.
God has given everyone desires and passions – things that make our hearts beat a little faster and bring tears to our eyes.
I remember a time when I was at my lowest, I was scared that my illness and my weaknesses, the depths I had reached for, would prevent me from following the call I thought God had placed on my life. I believed myself to be too broken, too exhausted and too damaged to be of any use to God. (Or anyone else for that matter.)
It was not until a very wise man said the following words that I began to believe that I could be of use.
“Those things that could break you, those things that you think will prevent you from having a ministry – it is those things that will enhance your ministry the most.”
I am sure that there are countless people suffering with mental illness who fear that they can be of no use to God, no use to the world in which we live. People who feel too battered and beaten to be able to make any kind of difference in the world.
Once again I am drawn back to the scriptures, and I will finish with the following verse – which speaks of the weaknesses in us and what the power of God can do with them:
‘But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.’
2 Corinthians 12:9.